On the search for

that carefree philosophy.

Thoughts:
I'd like to spend more time with my little brother (who isn't so little anymore!)

I'm so mad at my knee. I'm so pissed that I can't run, do the elliptical, stairmasters, or do squats. It's driving me mad.

Can't stop listening to http://youtu.be/DWkruuiml3s (Thanks, Chu)

Hmmm... much love to my girl N.

I wanna be baked to a golden crisp by the end of this summer. Beach bumming is one of my fav hobbies afterall..

Speaking of hobbies, I'm stoked on getting started on playing the acoustic guitar. I've been wanting to learn how to play for a few years now, but lethargy and the smallness of my hands have gotten in the way. I recently discovered two Yamaha guitars in my basement--one of them is this gorgeous classic guitar (circa 1988) with these beautiful ebony pegs, the other is a standard-looking acoustic guitar. Both are seem so promising, I can't decide which one to keep for myself. (Duh.. keep both.)

"I don't know if I'm in love with you--I don't know what that is. But I know for sure, I'm crazy about you."

I need to revise my sleeping schedule. Chu's right; I'm waking up in a completely timezone. I always said that sleep deprivation would be my hamartia.

Cocoa Rice Krispies are soo yumskies. If y'all have the chance to get your hands on some (courtesy of our friendly neighbour from the South), GET ON IT.

I considered starting a marketing blog but my passions leave me elsewhere.. actually, they lead me towards cosmetology and fine foods. What can I say? I'm a superficial fatty at heart. loveandcheekbones.blogspot.com is where it's at. I'll be talking shit about NYX, taking a lots of pictures of myself, and doing what I do best.. (eating).

I forget what good music does to the soul..

Although I've always considered myself a kind person, as the years progress.. I've become really stuck-up. Worst of all, it's unintentional snobbery. I think we can all agree, judgement is involuntary--it's what you do with that judgement that makes a difference. Sometimes, I pass judgement on people and let it take control of how I treat them and I think they deserve to be treated. I forget that humanity loses itself in such convictions. I'd like to be a kinder person this summer. A genuinely kinder person. I'd like to bask in all that sunshine, see all the beauties of life, shake off the bad moments and relish in the good ones. I want to do better, be better. I want this summer to be about more laughter and more smiles. Everyone needs to smile more.

Lastly..
Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier. - Mother Teresa

I wanna. I wanna. I gotta be adored.

So my boyfriend and I recently admitted that we are falling in love with each other.

"We're definitely on our way," as he puts it.

Half of me is exhilerated--shouldn't we all aim to be that brutally honest and openly suspectible to love? I always thought love's Nirvana would be described as a place where nobody is keeping score anymore. A place where you're free to stand ontop of a street bench and tell the whole world how much you love your significant other; where all trust issues simply dissipate.

I would be so happy just having that. For a (premature) period of time, my greatest fear growing up was to one day wake up next to the wrong person. I'd turn next to me and wonder, "Where's the love of my life?"

But of course, nothing in life works out accordingly. We can't all have what we want. The cynic in the back of my head recognizes the boundaries between sheer fantasy and reality. We can't all have the fairytale wedding and the happy marriage. Part of me is in love with the idea of love; its many manifestations and the promise that it is indeed what gives life purpose.

The other part of me is mortified.

"What's your favourite thing about me?"

"Your personality."

My heart be big, but it beat quiet.

spent the day at the gym with one of my fav girls. we decided to get a little crazy, get a little wild.. @ the Y, by joining a steps class, difficulty level = 2.5. it was ridiculously fun!!!!!!!! i was terrible though.. being honest here. i got lost during a lot of the moves (hand-eye coordination doesn't seem to be my forte) and i was laughing the whole time. the teacher actually had to come over and help me at one point.. hahaha.. talk about embarassing! and these older ladies were like "it's okay, first time's always hard!" and "don't worry, you're doing great!" says the lady directly behind me.. aka directly watching me screw up and look like a lost puppy. hahaha i loved it all..




met a few characters today too.. "did you know your phone is the dirtiest.." hahaha thanks for letting us know bud.. my absolute favourite has to be the 2 korean boys standing at the 49th bus stop. chu and i were at a light, and i pointed at one of them and was like "oh my god!! do you see how low his v-neck is???" seriously, it was around the nipple-line area.. maybe even lower. chu proceeded to say "i have those pants." he was wearing harlem pants. we were laughing so hard, "crazy koreans! hahaha" and then his friend noticed us laughing at him and told him, and he himself started laughing. and then chu said "oh my god. his friend is wearing uggs."

i turned on my laptop to reply emails but instead it turned into blogging.. tweeting.. facebook msging and tweaking my school schedule to perfection. i took a leap of faith and decided to enroll myself into a 1030am class. it's critical i attend too.. bc i failed last term and i can't afford to fail again -__- let's hope i didn't sign myself up for failure and disappointment..

and lastly, a birthday shoutout to one of my best girls.. even though she's MIA half the time and living on the eastcoast.. d <333 i love you girl, have the happiest birthday. i know you most definitely deserve it... for the hardest worker i know! it's my breaking my heart we can't celebrate it on your real birthday.. but i'll see you soon.

Feels like something's missing. ..