On the search for

that carefree philosophy.

Thoughts:
I'd like to spend more time with my little brother (who isn't so little anymore!)

I'm so mad at my knee. I'm so pissed that I can't run, do the elliptical, stairmasters, or do squats. It's driving me mad.

Can't stop listening to http://youtu.be/DWkruuiml3s (Thanks, Chu)

Hmmm... much love to my girl N.

I wanna be baked to a golden crisp by the end of this summer. Beach bumming is one of my fav hobbies afterall..

Speaking of hobbies, I'm stoked on getting started on playing the acoustic guitar. I've been wanting to learn how to play for a few years now, but lethargy and the smallness of my hands have gotten in the way. I recently discovered two Yamaha guitars in my basement--one of them is this gorgeous classic guitar (circa 1988) with these beautiful ebony pegs, the other is a standard-looking acoustic guitar. Both are seem so promising, I can't decide which one to keep for myself. (Duh.. keep both.)

"I don't know if I'm in love with you--I don't know what that is. But I know for sure, I'm crazy about you."

I need to revise my sleeping schedule. Chu's right; I'm waking up in a completely timezone. I always said that sleep deprivation would be my hamartia.

Cocoa Rice Krispies are soo yumskies. If y'all have the chance to get your hands on some (courtesy of our friendly neighbour from the South), GET ON IT.

I considered starting a marketing blog but my passions leave me elsewhere.. actually, they lead me towards cosmetology and fine foods. What can I say? I'm a superficial fatty at heart. loveandcheekbones.blogspot.com is where it's at. I'll be talking shit about NYX, taking a lots of pictures of myself, and doing what I do best.. (eating).

I forget what good music does to the soul..

Although I've always considered myself a kind person, as the years progress.. I've become really stuck-up. Worst of all, it's unintentional snobbery. I think we can all agree, judgement is involuntary--it's what you do with that judgement that makes a difference. Sometimes, I pass judgement on people and let it take control of how I treat them and I think they deserve to be treated. I forget that humanity loses itself in such convictions. I'd like to be a kinder person this summer. A genuinely kinder person. I'd like to bask in all that sunshine, see all the beauties of life, shake off the bad moments and relish in the good ones. I want to do better, be better. I want this summer to be about more laughter and more smiles. Everyone needs to smile more.

Lastly..
Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier. - Mother Teresa

Period Talk

As a small attempt in hoping my period comes sooner, I have switched into my Blackberry case and will start eating copious amounts of ice cream. I need my period to arrive already, because I'm in need of reassurance in my most recent emotionally-driven antics.

Y'all know you're officially cray cray when you start admitting to your antics..

My boyfriend is taking a lot of the heat. He's annoyingly accepting of this entire process; he went as far as to say, "Baby.. Are you on your period? I know around the second week of the month is when your cycle starts."

Bitch, please. I am not on my period.

Yet.

I want me some fucking ice cream!!!!!!!

A Thank You note

I'm the type of person who is easily moved. I cried at the Hummel wedding in Glee, I get attached to fictional characters, I get sad beyond reasons about subjects that don't come up in normal dinner conversation. It wouldn't be wrong to say that I do blow some things out of porportion [#kanyeshrug].. And to my chagrin, I have the annoying knack of wearing my heart on my sleeve.

I don't know why I'm so upset, I think if anything though, I'm more really angry. In short, a teacher at my high school was recently arrested for "sexual harrassment". It makes sense that word has been passed around to my high school alumni, but having students misconstrue the facts (or in this case, lack thereof) is another thing. I'm relating back to one of my theories that I've come up with on how some people are so despicable.. (mostly derrived from my experience in the restaurant industry/people to people encounters).

It sounds extremely naive, but sometimes it's hard to wrap my head around the fact that not everyone has a good heart. Not everyone thinks before they say something, do something, or type it up on Facebook for the whole world to see. Not everyone has common courtesy, some people have no courtesy at all. Not everyone remembers that you are human being, and not what your job description says you are.

Anyways, what happened was that someone on Facebook had deemed this teacher a "rapist" when I'm sure everyone has seen the article and it didn't say anything about raping or even disclosing the sex of the victim. Being honest, I didn't look too much into what that person said, except for slightly shaking my head in disapproval because how is this funny mislabelling someone a rapist.. And this is someone who was part of our educational community. Teachers really put themselves out there.

However, my girlfriend DID say something about it. She commented on said person's status, wrote an entire paragraph explaining how it's sad to see people laughing at the expense of someone else's misery. And how falsely accusing someone of being a rapist just further discredits their reputation, which is exactly what all this publicity has done. This teacher has not only lost their job, but their reputation has been shot to pieces. An individual commented on what my girlfriend had said, as a counter argument. Ugh.. between you and I, I fucking hate this guy. He's disgusting and legit makes me want to punch him in the face. He said something along the lines of "He already ruined his reputation by doing what he did. Just because you love [teacher's name] doesn't make what you said right. If you can't accept that then you are SAD. Yada yada yada.. I have nothing substantial to say because I'm a flaming moron." I'm not being bias (maybe a tad).. he is a fucking moron.. and also a bigot for that matter. And guess what his profile picture is on Facebook? A blurry, pixilated, cropped headshot of the accused teacher. I'm going to go ahead and say that he's too hideous to put his real picture on Facebook anyway..

As my endnote, I've been kind of off lately with everything that's been going on in my life. I've been spending a lot of time with my family, pushing out a lot of my friends. I've been contemplating whether or not I've changed drastically from the person I was only a year ago, or if I'm just freaking myself out. AS MY ENDNOTE, I'd like to say I'm glad that assholes and jerkoffs exist in this universe, otherwise I'd lose sight of what kind of person I aim not to be. And as these individuals exude some of the characteristics that I hate the most in humanity, they remind me of my values and my morals. I'd like to thank them for never losing sight of the small small world they live in..

here's a toast for the douchebags. *kisses*