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Say no to the things you don't want in life.

On the search for

that carefree philosophy.

Thoughts:
I'd like to spend more time with my little brother (who isn't so little anymore!)

I'm so mad at my knee. I'm so pissed that I can't run, do the elliptical, stairmasters, or do squats. It's driving me mad.

Can't stop listening to http://youtu.be/DWkruuiml3s (Thanks, Chu)

Hmmm... much love to my girl N.

I wanna be baked to a golden crisp by the end of this summer. Beach bumming is one of my fav hobbies afterall..

Speaking of hobbies, I'm stoked on getting started on playing the acoustic guitar. I've been wanting to learn how to play for a few years now, but lethargy and the smallness of my hands have gotten in the way. I recently discovered two Yamaha guitars in my basement--one of them is this gorgeous classic guitar (circa 1988) with these beautiful ebony pegs, the other is a standard-looking acoustic guitar. Both are seem so promising, I can't decide which one to keep for myself. (Duh.. keep both.)

"I don't know if I'm in love with you--I don't know what that is. But I know for sure, I'm crazy about you."

I need to revise my sleeping schedule. Chu's right; I'm waking up in a completely timezone. I always said that sleep deprivation would be my hamartia.

Cocoa Rice Krispies are soo yumskies. If y'all have the chance to get your hands on some (courtesy of our friendly neighbour from the South), GET ON IT.

I considered starting a marketing blog but my passions leave me elsewhere.. actually, they lead me towards cosmetology and fine foods. What can I say? I'm a superficial fatty at heart. loveandcheekbones.blogspot.com is where it's at. I'll be talking shit about NYX, taking a lots of pictures of myself, and doing what I do best.. (eating).

I forget what good music does to the soul..

Although I've always considered myself a kind person, as the years progress.. I've become really stuck-up. Worst of all, it's unintentional snobbery. I think we can all agree, judgement is involuntary--it's what you do with that judgement that makes a difference. Sometimes, I pass judgement on people and let it take control of how I treat them and I think they deserve to be treated. I forget that humanity loses itself in such convictions. I'd like to be a kinder person this summer. A genuinely kinder person. I'd like to bask in all that sunshine, see all the beauties of life, shake off the bad moments and relish in the good ones. I want to do better, be better. I want this summer to be about more laughter and more smiles. Everyone needs to smile more.

Lastly..
Spread love everywhere you go. Let no one ever come to you without leaving happier. - Mother Teresa

chaotic Kaylynn

My mother and I are currently not on speaking terms. The silent treatment is her cure for everything. My grandma is attempting to do all the mommy-ish side duties.. e.g. asking where I'm going as I put on my shoes to leav the house, making sure that I'm sleeping and eating, and the occasional "Are you seeing a boy?"

Unfortunately, my mum isn't the only person I've been fighting with. I've had a handful of fights with the boyfriend already.. it's like I'm prone to arguments! We have been fighting about "stupid" things that have led onto bigger topics.. such as, me not affectionate, me having poor organizational skills, me being inconsiderate. To make matters worse, I'm one of those feisty little shits that will keep fighting until I've got the last word. I'm also the annoying type that even when I know I'm wrong, I am defensive as fuck and will continue on with angry banter. Sometimes (like now), I even annoy myself..

Despite my antics, my boyfriend has been amazing. Although we didn't spend New Years together, I had a wonderfully random yet awesome NYE with the fam. Can't go wrong with my friends, we're always good as long as we're together. Boyfriend and I celebrated our one month on the 1st--monthaversaries, we are so lame but so happy together.

This winter break has been exceedingly unprecedented. I no longer have the desire to relish in every moment of life, that crave for life is gone. I am in constant debate whether this is just the way it goes in life, or I've somehow put a damper on myself? Crazy, to think that you make your own misery..